a drastic change in tone

well, i've landed myself in a few predicaments recently,

i lost my ipod, just about to scratch my eyes out here in the office listening to the few songs i've had in my gmail for the last two days. yes yes, mellow songs are good but not ALL the time, dammit, my consumerist urge is itching and being tickled and screaming out for vengence... but alas, purchasing might have to wait after the 2k bill from last month.

i need to smoke less, so i left my cigarettes at home this morning, brilliant! then i went to see if my ipod turned up at the gym. When it did not, i went and bought expensive cigarettes, just to convince myself that maybe, just maybe, if i have more expensive cigarettes, i'll smoke less, ahhhh logic is leaving me, just like sense left me long ago.

i still sleep with the lights on... yes, yes, it's my awful singing, but alas, i like it, ha ha ha ha