and to put that last bit in perspective

I was thunder struck just now with another catalysmic event, ha ha ha ha. In retrospect the bit of mental anguish earlier can hardly be described as "terror" compared to this... it just made me realize how much i take for granted and how insatiable i can be. ha.

then again it's exactly moments like now that I wish I had that someone who would say a few comforting things to me... does that make me weak... I'm not sure. But I'm pretty sure everyone's got some moments of weakness like this one. it's funny that this happened just now though. it's like the divine's tip of the hat to remind me that, really, get over myself, i laugh and laugh and laugh.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, goddammit!